Meron.There has to be a God out there. Today would be a dark day if there wasn't.
There has to be a God who would embrace dear nikki from the cold. There has to be a light somewhere at the end of this life, for that is what nikki should have seen. Heaven is real -- its has to be -- because that's the only way I would ever see nikki again. God is alive, because it is a much, much darker day if he didn't.
Some might ask - why take away nikki from us? Why a good person - an extraordinarily good person? How good is a God who does this? How real is a benevolent God who would take from us a beacon of hope, love, and cura personalis? But do we stop and think - how empty a death without the possibility of God would feel?
I do not propose to know His reasons or His plans -- but today, most especially today, I beleive He has plans. He is benevolent. He is Good. He is Wonderful. He is Mercy. Alam ko na andyan ka, Panginoon, dahil sa Iyo Pagiging lamang nagkakabuluhan ang pagpanaw ng aming kaibigang nikki.
Tinig.
For us who are left behind, especially for myself, I feel a sense of greater responsibility for my life. I feel most strongly the sense of purpose - or at least seeking it and fulfilling it - surging through me. Para sa mga nakakakilala kay nikki, alam natin na napakalaki ng kinabukasan at kakayahan niya. Alam natin na kahit ni isa sa atin, walang ikukumpara sa lakas ng loob o sa makakayang gawin ni nikki. Si nikki na may karisma, na may mabuting loob, na may pag-alaga, na may paninindigan, na mas malakas pa kaysa kanino sa atin.
Ngayong wala na siya rito upang tuparin ang kanyang kakayahan -- nararamdaman ko na kailangan kong gawin ang tulad niya. Bilang respeto sa isang katangi-tangi at malakas na kabigan... bilang respeto at pagpapasalamat kay nikki... hindi ba dapat kong ibuhos sa buhay ko ang katumbas na lakas ng loob, kabutihan, pagsasauna ng iba ng tulad ng binuhos ni nikki sa buhay niya? Isang tawag na maging tulad niya, na sa buong buhay niya ay tumulad sa Kanya.
Ito ang tawag na naramdaman ko sa puso ko. Tawag na alam ko ay para sa ating lahat.
Nikki, boses mo ba yang naririnig namin?
Nikki, mahal ka namin. As you are in heaven, please pray for all of us who remain here, doing His work.
